Tuesday, May 19, 2009

In My Absence

Well, it's been awhile since I've been on my blog. Sometimes, the old brain just doesn't want to cooperate...lol! During that time, I've been through a few transitions.
My grandson spent the weekend with my ex husband and his wife. When he got back, he seemed so disoriented. We think he experienced some separation anxiety. He returned sunday night and was not back to normal behavior until this morning. I was truly concerned. From the moment he arrived til today, he was fussy, whinnie and extremely clingy. He even ran a temperature. I'd like to believe the temperature was due to his teeth or some other reason. Today, he back to my sweet, happy, affectionate grandson.

The other issue that has taken my attention is that of looking back into my career as a Marriage and Family Therapist. I think I shared the story of my downfall with you all. If not, I can do that at another time. I was terminated, without notice, back in August of 07. A few of my co-workers FINALLY contacted me and said they believe it was due to some mishap or failure on the part of my, then, supervisor who no longer works there. It makes me EXTREMELY angry to think about it.

I was going through very difficult times then. Sometimes, it is just our turn to face back to back harships in life. My car had major repairs twice then, on the 3rd round of repairs, the car simply died all together. I drove the van (a 1990 V8 Ford Econoline) and two days later it broke down. My ex suggested I drive my tiny little 1977 motor home and the started died two days after the van. Yes in 5 days, all my vehicles broke down. At the time of my termination from the job, my daughter had loaned me her car. Two weeks later, I was terminated from the job.

Loosing your job is the most devastating thing that can ever happen to you. I was completely broken, spiritually, mentally, emotionally, etc. They did not give me a reason so I had no idea as to whether or not it was my skills as a therapist or the budget or what. I tried to find out by calling Human Resources, but they told me that were not allowed to say according to such-a-such code. I went into "get another job" mode but, literally after putting out hundreds of resumes and applications, there was nothing!

After 8 months of working with my mortgage company, Chase, I was one of the first people to go through a modification program. The fixed me up quite well. In the meantime, a friend of mine made me supervisor of his cleaning company and paid me quite well which is what I used for income, while I got the daycare up rolling again. (This is not or ever was my office. It is, however, dream office :)).

I said all the above to say, it has taken this long to reassert this issue for myself. It has taken all this time for me to gather the courage to face this again. It has been quite painful and emotional.

So, as a result of my above explanation, I called yesterday actually and they followed up with me today to see what I need to do to get back on track. I plan to do daycare at least until my grandson is in preschool. By then, my 3000 intern hours will have expired and I will have to begain again. This would be fine because I'm sure I will be able to find a job, with benefits, to regain these hours again.

The plan is, when my youngest son graduates from high school in 3 years, I will down size on my houses, return to San Diego, get a job doing family therapy (emphasis on children), find a small, victorian house or apartment to "rent" and live life easily and happily.