It has been along while since I've blogged. I'm having a flood of thoughts lately. Lots of adjustments to be made. In one minute, I'm slow and depressed. In another, I'm full of energy and feeling great. Really not sure what to do with myself. Most of the time, I am bored and really do not want to be responsible. Often my brain is blank and my body doesn't want to put forth the effort to do what needs to be done. Even when I am able to muster up ideas and plans to do them, the old body doesn't cooperate...no motivation what so ever. I've gained 6 pounds and I can feel every bit of it; when I walk I feel heavy and my clothes have much less room in them. I feel I've become quite lazy.
I think much of my problem is boredom. Either I stay isolated and prevent myself from feeling excessively tired or I stretch out, create a life of fun, still be tired but having had fun in the process. I'm working on the last point. I don't like change and I don't transition well. My children have told me I have to make an effort to get past my comfort zone to try new things. I did go skating with my daughter and had an absolutely wonderful time. It was on a tues. It was over at 11pm but we ended up stopping in the parking lot and talking to one of her friends until almost 2:30, arriving home about 3am and getting up for work the next day at 5am! lol! It was definitely fun and we agreed not to stay and socialize to the late hours lol!
On the other hand, all is well. All of my young adult children are doing well in their own lives. They are learning to be adults and doing a good job. For that I am most truly thankful. When my children are doing well, most other things I can handle.
I'm trying to eat better and to start my exercise schedule. I believe once I get both these started, I will have more energy and lose the weight. Six pounds may not sound like much, but it really is. I am definitely a stress eater, especially sweets. Fast food doesn't help either. It's been pretty hot and cooking is not something I care to do this time of the year. My son went grocery shopping for me, with my list. Saved me a huge task. So, I should be off to a good start next week.
I don't mean to complain. I figure putting my thoughts in writing might help to sort myself out, if that makes sense. My efforts this upcoming week will be to eat "at home" and impliment an exercise regime.
Positive thoughts and prayers!