Today, my ex called (I suppose I should call him by his name, Clovis) and suggested I move back to San Diego by the end of the summer. This suggestion, though not a bad one, caused my brain to flip-flop. It threw me for a loop because if it were that easy, I would be there already Lol! I do know him well and that is his way of having me and the kids closer so that he can better help when times get a little tough.
Clovis is not the first person who has made a few suggestions that have caused me to reflect "back". I use the term "back" because these are areas of my life I left due to major discomforts. The thought of returning brings about very mixed feelings. It's been almost four years since we moved from San Diego. A lot has changed for the better. To move back would be like stepping back into the past but as a new, different person. Kind of like visiting your old school now that you are all grown up. Just not sure.
I think I mentioned that a very, very old and dear friend of mine, David, called me the other day. He suggested I take the licensing exam again. This is still an extremely sensitive area for me. I already explained my termination from my job in '07 and having taken the exam two weeks later. I was already scheduled to take several months before being terminated. Needless to say, I failed the exam by 11 points! It was the usual 4 hour exam and I was very, very, very emotional due to loosing my job.
Long story short, it is just interesting how two people, who have known many, many years are suggesting I re-visit areas of my past. I'm not sure how I feel about that....about the actual suggestions. Personally, I feel it is their way of trying to help. For me, all is pretty well with exception of a temporary financial set back. My thoughts say, I will get a few kids for the daycare in due time and things will be ok.
I must be careful not to let someone else's need be my own.....there! Whew! Thank you for listening! Lol!
Friday, March 6, 2009
Thursday, March 5, 2009
Oneself....
Hey Polly,
THank you so much for your encouragement. Taking care of yourselves is so important. My motivation, unfortunately, is stress. I don't like the way it feels so I strive hard to detour the feelings. We can only do our best with circumstances. Once we have done all that we can do, we have let it go until the next step comes into view. Until that point, there's no sense in pondering over it.
Considering the economy and how tough things are right now, I am doing fairly well for a single parent doing it all pretty much alone. My children's father is a very good man. We both agree, even 12 and a half years later, that we should have remained best friends. However, we have four beautiful children now. He has been very good about child support, but I make it a point to not go beyond that. Two of our four kids are no longer on child support. One will be off child support come June. THat will leave one more to go for four more years. Needless to say, this affects my income. The kids are well behaved young adults. We are very blessed considering what young people are exposed to today.
I am a warrior. I look over the horizon of life and try to prepare for upcoming battles, such as decreasing child support. That allows me to try to make adjustments. Finaces are my biggest concern. Debt scares me to the bone! I'm constantly looking over the bills, making sure there are no mistakes by the bill collector so I pay nothing extra. I am in constant contact with my bill people and have a pretty good relationship with them Lol! They track my contact with they via computer, of course. Such contact has proven good for me... small deductions along the way :).
All this said and done, including running the daycare, it is extremely important to maintain good mental functioning. As with anyone, stress can swallow us up and cause more damage to our health than we can ever imagine. I don't believe doctors always know what they are talking about, therefore, we have to be active towards our own good health as well. For example, I prefer supplements to medication. Although we have to be just as careful with supplements, they tend to have far less side effects than medication.
I encourage everyone to take care of themselves, especially if you are a parent, with or without a mate. A hot bath or shower, and getting plenty of rest, better plenty of sleep, makes a huge difference!
Carry on ladies!!
THank you so much for your encouragement. Taking care of yourselves is so important. My motivation, unfortunately, is stress. I don't like the way it feels so I strive hard to detour the feelings. We can only do our best with circumstances. Once we have done all that we can do, we have let it go until the next step comes into view. Until that point, there's no sense in pondering over it.
Considering the economy and how tough things are right now, I am doing fairly well for a single parent doing it all pretty much alone. My children's father is a very good man. We both agree, even 12 and a half years later, that we should have remained best friends. However, we have four beautiful children now. He has been very good about child support, but I make it a point to not go beyond that. Two of our four kids are no longer on child support. One will be off child support come June. THat will leave one more to go for four more years. Needless to say, this affects my income. The kids are well behaved young adults. We are very blessed considering what young people are exposed to today.
I am a warrior. I look over the horizon of life and try to prepare for upcoming battles, such as decreasing child support. That allows me to try to make adjustments. Finaces are my biggest concern. Debt scares me to the bone! I'm constantly looking over the bills, making sure there are no mistakes by the bill collector so I pay nothing extra. I am in constant contact with my bill people and have a pretty good relationship with them Lol! They track my contact with they via computer, of course. Such contact has proven good for me... small deductions along the way :).
All this said and done, including running the daycare, it is extremely important to maintain good mental functioning. As with anyone, stress can swallow us up and cause more damage to our health than we can ever imagine. I don't believe doctors always know what they are talking about, therefore, we have to be active towards our own good health as well. For example, I prefer supplements to medication. Although we have to be just as careful with supplements, they tend to have far less side effects than medication.
I encourage everyone to take care of themselves, especially if you are a parent, with or without a mate. A hot bath or shower, and getting plenty of rest, better plenty of sleep, makes a huge difference!
Carry on ladies!!
Wednesday, March 4, 2009
Victorious Muttling
Despite the muttling and stuggling, the week has been victorious...so far. It was quite a difficult start on monday. Being a single parent, sometimes, one has to do some self-pampering and nurturing in order to get ourselves back on our feet both physically and emotionally. So, a few spa baths and supplements later with a few good restful nights, I'm back in the captian's seat. Last week was a huge struggle....its a girl thang, that's all I can say. This week is back to normal...whatever normal may be cause it is definitely relative, Lol!
Well, I am still down two children in the daycare, but I am definitely enjoying little Tyler. He is an extremely bright little boy who knows his letters, numbers and shapes all by random identification. We spent much of the day doing projects. Since he likes the sky and it is rainy season with gray skies today, I helped him to make a mobile. Afterwards, we did some fine motor exercises by writing his letters and doing some coloring. He is such a delight to watch! Awesome facial expressions. We are working on expanding his extremely limited array of food choices. Very, very picky. We are making efforts to add a different food each week. Last week was peanut butter and jelly...what little one doesn't like peanut butter and jelly....Tyler, Lol! This week it is apple slices, with no skin of course. He is doing very well considering he's never had them before to my knowledge.
It's been a comfortable day. My own symptoms are at a minimum lately. Feels really good. I've been slacking on my stretches because I've been in such discomfort. Kinda a catch 22. Stretches help relieve the discomfort, but if too much discomfort, can't perform the stretches. Feeling good today. Can't overdo it.
I really enjoy reading the blogs, helps make the day a bit more exciting. Keep them going ladies!
Always, Presious
Well, I am still down two children in the daycare, but I am definitely enjoying little Tyler. He is an extremely bright little boy who knows his letters, numbers and shapes all by random identification. We spent much of the day doing projects. Since he likes the sky and it is rainy season with gray skies today, I helped him to make a mobile. Afterwards, we did some fine motor exercises by writing his letters and doing some coloring. He is such a delight to watch! Awesome facial expressions. We are working on expanding his extremely limited array of food choices. Very, very picky. We are making efforts to add a different food each week. Last week was peanut butter and jelly...what little one doesn't like peanut butter and jelly....Tyler, Lol! This week it is apple slices, with no skin of course. He is doing very well considering he's never had them before to my knowledge.
It's been a comfortable day. My own symptoms are at a minimum lately. Feels really good. I've been slacking on my stretches because I've been in such discomfort. Kinda a catch 22. Stretches help relieve the discomfort, but if too much discomfort, can't perform the stretches. Feeling good today. Can't overdo it.
I really enjoy reading the blogs, helps make the day a bit more exciting. Keep them going ladies!
Always, Presious
Monday, March 2, 2009
Back from the Weekend
Well,
My daughter felt I needed a break from the baby and decided to take him over to our friends house. I had my reservations for several reasons, however, he is her child and I let her decide. In the end, I did appreciate the break. Unfortunately, friday night that he was gone, I had a series of busy, not bad, dreams and I woke up exhausted. I do remember the dreams but do not see the relevance to my life....I guess I do, thinking about it.
Saturday, very dear friend of mine came up from San Diego (my old home town) and took me back there for an overnight trip. We went to dinner then just hung out the rest of the time. It was so awesome. I did not realize how much I needed to take a break. My teenage boys kept the baby while my daughter went to work. They did an awesome job and kept in contact with me every step of the way. Proved interesting for my boys. They now have just a wee bit more appreciation for how much work it takes to take care of a baby, run a daycare and keep the house going all at the same time! LOL! I feel so much better starting the week today.
When I got back home, my grandson was so glad to see his Nana that he wouldn't let me too far out of his sight! I got lots of smiles from him! Kids are so amazing from the cradle all the way up to teens and beyond.
My daughter felt I needed a break from the baby and decided to take him over to our friends house. I had my reservations for several reasons, however, he is her child and I let her decide. In the end, I did appreciate the break. Unfortunately, friday night that he was gone, I had a series of busy, not bad, dreams and I woke up exhausted. I do remember the dreams but do not see the relevance to my life....I guess I do, thinking about it.
Saturday, very dear friend of mine came up from San Diego (my old home town) and took me back there for an overnight trip. We went to dinner then just hung out the rest of the time. It was so awesome. I did not realize how much I needed to take a break. My teenage boys kept the baby while my daughter went to work. They did an awesome job and kept in contact with me every step of the way. Proved interesting for my boys. They now have just a wee bit more appreciation for how much work it takes to take care of a baby, run a daycare and keep the house going all at the same time! LOL! I feel so much better starting the week today.
When I got back home, my grandson was so glad to see his Nana that he wouldn't let me too far out of his sight! I got lots of smiles from him! Kids are so amazing from the cradle all the way up to teens and beyond.
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
Rollercoaster of Good Events
This weekend was a major rollercoaster of good events. I woke up with a pretty severe migraine and had decided to a muscle relaxant (which I rarely take meds), bring out the heating pad, close my blinds, pass my grandson onto my 17 year old and 14 year old sons until his mommie returned home from work (she works the night shift), then close myself in my room with the blankets over my head. My sons did pretty well with the baby. I managed to get about 2 hours of good silence, even a nap.
When I woke up, I began thinking over the next few days i.e. losing three kids in the daycare, causing a significant adjustment in the budget and not being able to take my boys to see their dad this upcoming weekend. So, I sent a text to their father to let him know. His response brought me to tears! The support and understanding that can come across through a message is unbelieveable! Even though he is happily married to a woman whom I get along with quite well, he went all the way back to when we first met, and described me in such a gentle, sweet manner that it caused all those memories to come flooding back...in a good way! He told me I was right that we should have remained friends, but through it all, look at the good that was produced out of it i.e. our four beautiful children and one beautiful grandson. In addition, he apologized for any pain or discomfort he caused during that time (as I to him in return) and said he still loves (note: not in love with) the woman he met all those years ago. It was sooo touching, yes, I blubbered all over the place! We agreed to forgive each other (again!) and continue to support each other as friends, parents and grandparents. It was really, really nice.
Then on monday morning, as I prepared to open the daycare, I received a phone call from one of the parents who was due to be layed off. She informed me that her job had prepared another position for her and that I will be keeping her son in the daycare! What a relief to the budget! Plus, he is a sweetie and it is nice not to have to find another child, although I am still two children short of meeting the budget. On another positive note, having such a small group is sooo much easier to work with, Lol! I can provide so much more attention to each of them, but you gotta love 'em all!
Though my migraine is still lingering, I did manage to bake some chicken breasts that I picked up by accident when we went grocery shopping last saturday. I usually don't care for the breast, but I thought since I have them, might as well go for it. They turned out really good! Not dry at all! Made them with garlic, lemon pepper and fresh onions. Looking forward to dinner tonight!
As for the baby, my grandson, he is doing well on his new sleeping schedule. He is crying less during the day too. Yesterday, while on the floor on his tummy, he turned over twice! His mom who is going to school during the day and working at night, was here to see and she was so excited! I was glad she was able to see such a small but significant turning point for her little baby boy.
Well, I had better go now. Expecting two more kids to arrive soon and have to do after-school pick up later. Need to take advantage of the rest time right now with the kids being down for nap.
Presious
When I woke up, I began thinking over the next few days i.e. losing three kids in the daycare, causing a significant adjustment in the budget and not being able to take my boys to see their dad this upcoming weekend. So, I sent a text to their father to let him know. His response brought me to tears! The support and understanding that can come across through a message is unbelieveable! Even though he is happily married to a woman whom I get along with quite well, he went all the way back to when we first met, and described me in such a gentle, sweet manner that it caused all those memories to come flooding back...in a good way! He told me I was right that we should have remained friends, but through it all, look at the good that was produced out of it i.e. our four beautiful children and one beautiful grandson. In addition, he apologized for any pain or discomfort he caused during that time (as I to him in return) and said he still loves (note: not in love with) the woman he met all those years ago. It was sooo touching, yes, I blubbered all over the place! We agreed to forgive each other (again!) and continue to support each other as friends, parents and grandparents. It was really, really nice.
Then on monday morning, as I prepared to open the daycare, I received a phone call from one of the parents who was due to be layed off. She informed me that her job had prepared another position for her and that I will be keeping her son in the daycare! What a relief to the budget! Plus, he is a sweetie and it is nice not to have to find another child, although I am still two children short of meeting the budget. On another positive note, having such a small group is sooo much easier to work with, Lol! I can provide so much more attention to each of them, but you gotta love 'em all!
Though my migraine is still lingering, I did manage to bake some chicken breasts that I picked up by accident when we went grocery shopping last saturday. I usually don't care for the breast, but I thought since I have them, might as well go for it. They turned out really good! Not dry at all! Made them with garlic, lemon pepper and fresh onions. Looking forward to dinner tonight!
As for the baby, my grandson, he is doing well on his new sleeping schedule. He is crying less during the day too. Yesterday, while on the floor on his tummy, he turned over twice! His mom who is going to school during the day and working at night, was here to see and she was so excited! I was glad she was able to see such a small but significant turning point for her little baby boy.
Well, I had better go now. Expecting two more kids to arrive soon and have to do after-school pick up later. Need to take advantage of the rest time right now with the kids being down for nap.
Presious
Friday, February 20, 2009
Think I Got It!
As you know, I have my first grandchild, a 4 month old beautiful boy. It's interesting how things become so different when you are older and have raised your own children. Not only are you, yourself, different, but the generation and how they respond to the world is so different. My mom used to always say, "When we were your age...." Interesting...I can see that now.
I breastfed all four of my children, but I ran a daycare and was an at-home mom. I would feed them, then get up and put them back in their own beds. Today, I guess it was the same for other moms during my time as well, moms keep their child in bed with them. Thus, it becomes difficult for the baby to sleep without the comfort of mom being next to them. As a result, the baby becomes quite fussy and upset with intense crying.
My daughter and I have agreed to put the baby in his own bed to make life easier for him. He is a baby and does not understand when mommie is not beside him, at nap time, during the day. We've been doing this for just a few nights and it has already helped him to calm down during the day.
Being a new grandma, aka Nana, is so much fun!
I breastfed all four of my children, but I ran a daycare and was an at-home mom. I would feed them, then get up and put them back in their own beds. Today, I guess it was the same for other moms during my time as well, moms keep their child in bed with them. Thus, it becomes difficult for the baby to sleep without the comfort of mom being next to them. As a result, the baby becomes quite fussy and upset with intense crying.
My daughter and I have agreed to put the baby in his own bed to make life easier for him. He is a baby and does not understand when mommie is not beside him, at nap time, during the day. We've been doing this for just a few nights and it has already helped him to calm down during the day.
Being a new grandma, aka Nana, is so much fun!
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
Til Next Year
Well folks,
I met with disappointment today. I thought I was going to get a nice rax refund this year, but I changed to in home day care since I lost my job with the county. So, my $3,800 went to pay my social security for last year. I really broke even with the mere exception of $199. So, all is not lost. It could have been a lot worse. I try to think about it in terms of being employed. I could not even have a job! All in all, I am happy :).
Happy taxes to you all!
I met with disappointment today. I thought I was going to get a nice rax refund this year, but I changed to in home day care since I lost my job with the county. So, my $3,800 went to pay my social security for last year. I really broke even with the mere exception of $199. So, all is not lost. It could have been a lot worse. I try to think about it in terms of being employed. I could not even have a job! All in all, I am happy :).
Happy taxes to you all!
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