Here Today...:)

I'm up and busy this morning. Not sure which direction I'm going in or where I'm going, but I'm here!...lol! Just one of those mornings. I believe this is what Ms. FFF referred to in one of her blog entries, lol! Sometimes, we feel like we are just existing, can't feel ourselves. I think it's funny to me now because, after reading Ms. FFF's blog and so many people responding to it, I now know, I'm not crazy!

I think some of what I'm feeling is the change in weather. Those high winds can kick up a lot of dust, in addition to it being Spring now. All the pollens are out there too. My eyes and ears are quite itchy. Just now took an allergy pill.

My plan is to take the day slow and easy. I will only have two daycare kids today. They are well behaved 3 year old little boys. My grandson is in much better spirits today as well. So, we will see what the day will hold for these 3 little boys..:)

One of the Great Advantages of the Wind

I have always loved hanging clothes on the line. Back when my kids were very, very young and through elementary school, I hung ALL the clothes on the line. All four of my kids wore cloth diapers. Now my grandson is wearing them. Both my kids and my grandson are quite sensitive to disposable diapers.

Love the way they smell once they are dry!

Yesterday's Wind Storm

I wanted to blog this event yesterday, but I didn't have the brain cells...lol. The weather has changed from nice, comfortable, warm sunshine to strong, fast winds and dark skies. Upon picking up her child, one of my parents told me there was a sand storm coming in from another county.

Our city is spread out and surrounded by mountains, so we wouldn't necessarily get a sand storm per se. We have a lot of very large open areas. Sometimes we do see small sand

tornados where the wind will literally take the dirt up into a small tornado, about maybe 10 stories high....nothing major.

Yesterday the winds were so strong and moving so fast, I decided to take the cover off our brand new gazebo. It seemed to be under significant distress.

Today, the sun is back and the skies are beautifully clear, but the wind is still blowing. It's not as strong, but it is definitely noticeable!

Making Progress

My grandson is doing pretty good with sleeping in his own bed. On monday and tuesday nights, his mom (my daughter) is off work. She has been putting him in his bed (in her room) which he stays in most of the night. Yesterday evening, when he took his evening nap, she put him in the bed in my room. He slept for about 40 mins or so. When he woke up, I purposely let him stay there until he showed discomfort. He played for another 15 or so mins before beginning to whimper.

He is also beginning to scramble across the floor, lol! This stage is so cute. Last night, he actually made 3 crawls on all fours. He did it again this morning. It is truly a blessing to see him developing so well.

Interesting Comments

Thank you ladies for your comments to yesterday's blog. I really am ok. I look back and realize how far I've come. I just ponder a lot. I am a thinker and I love to hear the comments of other people. We are all so different yet, very much the same. We can teach each other alot from out own experiences. We know where we've come from, but often times, we don't know what's up ahead. We may find ourselves in the same or similar situations. Besides, if we don't share our thoughts or experiences, we become isolated possibly depressed which makes for more isolation.

Even now, though I am quite happy with my life (now that so much of it has settled down), I spend most of my time with children or alone. Reaching out to the blog, has helped me tremendously. For that I am grateful.

Life So Interesting

Relationships between man and woman are so interesting. How do some become so successful while others totally fail? Yes, I do know some of us have some severe baggage, but I've seen even those relationships make it through for years, very strongly.

My marriage didn't make it. Both of us, myself and my ex, look back and laugh. He said, "If I had just acted right, we'd still be together." I fought for him for 4 years! How long should I have stayed in that battle, that war? I had my share of faults as no one is perfect. Apparently, he was doing some things I was not aware of...I never wanted to know. What does it really take for a marriage to make it?

I know couples who have been married for 40 years and they know infidelity has occurred (and may still be occurring) yet they stay together. They sleep in separate rooms and have separate lives. It's like a divorce without the legal process. What happens when the people in the relationships change? How does that get handled? What is the effect on the trust in the marriage?

Today

I think I have had more support and more friends on the blogsphere than in my own neighborhood. You all have been really great and so very interesting.

Well,

I did try to put my grandson in his own bed. He woke 4 times and I felt horrible for him. The final time, I put him in my bed. By then he seemed almost traumatized. He keep putting his head up to look at me in the shadows of the night. Then he would feel my face with his hand, a couple of times, as if to make sure it was Nana laying there beside him. After expressing his dissatisfaction by crying and babbling, he finally fell into a sound, peaceful sleep.

Not sure if I should try it again. I'm thinking maybe put him in that particular bed on the weekdends to allow him to gradually get use to being in it....thanks Polly :). Babies can be sensitive to scents and sounds in their surroundings. Change in smaller steps would be better for him.