A Beautiful Week!.....So Far

I have been striving to have a better days seemingly forever! It feels so good to finally accomplish that over the past few days. It is amazing how strong our thoughts can be, how powerful our thoughts are. That old saying, "So a man thinketh, so is he", must be true!

As I mentioned before, I am very prone to depression. Quite naturally, it is not a good feeling. I am the type of person, to do something about it, however, it may take time for me to figure it out. I use to write in a journal many years back. Then I discovered the computer. I love typing....and later blogging. Therapy was a good tool for me, but my therapist is in San Diego. Besides, I have been doing soooo much better on my own. At the time, I was in a really bad position in my life.


Anyway, it just feels good to continue to grow and do better, even when circumstances are not at their greatest. My situation is still not quite out of the woods, but I do have something to work with. My thought is, life is not going to get any easier so I have to teach myself to get stronger. I want to not let my emotions take over. I want to be able to rationalize the situation, do all that I can to rectify it, then move on until the next step. I have plenty of friends that I can call on for support, but I really want to do it on my own. I feel I have made some progress and it feels soooo good!

My GREATEST weakness!

Ok People, this is it, my greatest weakness! Isn't disgusting? I can eat this kind of stuff all day long, every day! Do you know what this does to our body?....the calories, the ingredients! Don't let it be that time of the month!!! I'm sorry to be so blunt, but...but...what can I say??? Then, after I eat it, I feel soooo satisfyingly guilty! ...LOL!

For real, I love them, they are my weakness, but I stay as far away as possible...only have them once in a while......Deliciously horrible!!

We all need love

I really like this picture because to me we are all so different, yet we share the same needs, desires, wants, etc. Sharing and caring is so cool! These days and times, the world is not so forgiving. People are having severely difficult times. I am one of those people that a hug can turn my whole world around. Hugs are so great. I've had hugs that have brought me to tears. It was like all my woes were understood and I wasn't alone anymore even though, in reality, nothing at all had changed. Hugs don't even require words, but can be so powerful!

Thanks, Virtual World Bloggers!

Thank you everyone for your support and comments regarding my blog. :) Your responses were so cool! It really is like putting together your own house, your own personal touches that express who you are! Blogging is something that one can do all day long!

I love learning about the lives of other people. I really think that it is good for us to do that because we, as individuals, tend to feel so isolated even when we are in a room full of people. There is always something within ourselves that we wonder how others feel about it or don't want others to know about, etc. I always feel uplifted when I read the blogs. Whether it takes my mind off of my own issues or just brightens my day, I enjoy the blogs a lot!

Keep sending out all those blogs and supporting each other in one way or a thousand. :)

In a Fog

It has been a extremely busy weekend. It was productive and it went quite smoothly. We were organized with all of our errands and activities. I really enjoyed my time with my boys. They had their dental appointments on saturday. All four of them have had braces and I am on the last one, but they are all paid in full. Afterwards, we made a few stops to pick up a few things like my supplements. We like to look in the pawn shop for "non-violent" video games and DVD movies. Then we drove through Historical Old Town Murrieta. I say "drove" through for two reasons. One it was very hot on saturday and we really did not want to walk in the hot weather. Two, most of the stores were closed which we did not understand because it was saturday mid-day. We were glad that we found out where it was located so we can go back on another day. Finally, we stopped and looked at a new housing community that we had been saying we wanted to look at. Looking at new houses is always fun. Then we came home and rested. Later in the evening, we pulled out some movies and ordered pizza.

Sunday, right before service, I did look after one of my day care kids. She did not feel very well, but she was extremely well behaved. The day went well. I did make it to services where I saw some friends I hadn't seen in a good while.

Unfortunately, my grandson seems to have a sinus infection. My kids were prone to them and got them frequently until I althered their diets with more fruits and veggies. His eyes are seeping and puffy :( and his nose is stuffy. Needless to say he has been quite fussy. He woke up several times last night just briefly, then finally at 4:45 am. Now, of course, he is sleep and I am getting ready to start the day. My daughter, his mom, is taking him to the doctor first thing this morning when she gets home.

This morning, I am fighting a migraine. Not good. I felt it coming on on sunday evening. So, I'm taking care of myself as best I can. If you've ever had a migraine, the two worst symptoms are bright light and noise. I do have some of the blinds closed, but kids will make noise. I usually put cotton in my ears to muffle the noise. When the kids go down for nap, I try to rest my eyes at that time as well. I should be ok today because my daughter will be here to take care of her son.

Otherwise, I am off to a good start for a monday. My dear friend is coming over this evening for a bible study, which I look forward to. I plan to totally relax tonight with a hot bath and an early bed time.

Til later, Happy Monday to everyone

I Must Laugh at Myself!

I am tickled pink today! I've been learning how to work on my blog as I become more and more inspired by other blogs :). I am not a computer person...and, yes, I know my blog looks a bit awkward, but I am having a blast of a time playing around with it! lol! Just a week or two ago, I'd never do something like this. It is soooo much fun!

So, everyone, if it looks a bit "rookie-ish", it is!! LOL! I love it! I love it! I feel like a kid doing crafts or something...:)

My next accomplishment is to take pictures with a digital camera so I can share with you some of the subjects in my blog! Tried it yesterday, but the camera is too complicated for my simple brain! This is why God created teenagers!

Thanks for your patience!

Baby is Doing Better

Yesterday, my grandson had a very difficult day with lots and lots of crying. Even I, with all my experience, was lost for causes until my daughter said, "Mom, he's probably has gas." So, I took him off her breast milk (we give him both breast milk and formula), and gave him water. He did drink quite a bit of water, gave me a huge burp and seemed a lot better. We still had a bit of a ways to go, but that seemed to help a lot. Later, I have him some formula. He drank almost 6 ozs straight, including his dinner of some green beans, applesauce and a dash of rice cereal....yes, he has an appetite!

I also had two late night kids last night. As I continued taking care of the toddler, I put my grandson on the floor right at my feet, in front of me. He is able to sit up on his own now. Suddenly, he stopped crying and being antsy to discover the new place he was in. He sat there for at least 10 mins just smiling and cooing. It was so adorable! This moment was prior to giving him the water.

So, after giving him the water and his dinner, I placed a sheet on the floor with all his toys. Boy, was this a new revelation for him! Usually, during day care hours, he is on the floor, but we are downstairs and I have a "fenced-off" area for the babies (or him). Last night we were in my room as I was preparing for bed and the evening schedule. Usually during this time, he is in the play pen or on my bed with me. Now, we have a new spot upstairs...on the floor! Nana will have to sit with him during this time because, though he is not crawling, he is quite the mobile one. He pivots on his tummy and also pushes himself backwards.

By bedtime, he was back to being a happy baby :). In fact, after the night kids left, I put him up on the bed with me so that we can get ready to go to sleep. By the time I had settled myself in, he had simply laid his head down and had fallen asleep.

This morning, he is doing much, much better, back on track with his morning routine....so far!

Feeling Sooooo Much Better!

I am feeling so much lighter! For the past few days, I have felt so much better emotionally. I so wish I knew what the difference is, you know, what has changed that I feel better. I do continue to tell myself, "It will get better." You know me and how I do things, lol! I look ahead to see, if anything, I can do to shorten the time frame of discomfort. I do believe my discomfort is due to financial shortcomings so my options will be fairly limited. I have done all that I can do at this point.

I've focused more on getting rest, taking my hot baths and going back to bible study. For a wihle there, I had become so overwhelmed that I had lost my way to rebuilding myself. Sunday afternoon, I felt so guilty because I had to give myself permission to lay in bed with movies all day! It paid off wonderfully. I'm not able to take my hot baths as regularly as I would like and had once done due to having a few day care kids late evening, but I have resumed taking my baths as often as I can...sometimes 11:00 pm!

This afternoon, while the kids were sleeping, a very dear friend of mine stopped by to give me a "just-thought-of you" gift. Believe it or not, no one has ever done such a thing for me! It was totally awesome! She has really be there for me spiritually. We pray together and study scriptures together. She brought me a beautiful, large, colorful chime set!

True friends can be totally awesome!

Animals are trusting, take care of them

I am a huge fan of animals, especially dogs. They are so loyal and loving, yet humans can be so abusive. If I could, I would have a dog kennel and take care of all the unwanted dogs. At the same time, they are just like children, from potty training to feeding! lol! Just adorable

Being Consistent

Today, I have a mild concern of not being consistent. I say "mild" because I do understand why I am having difficulty with it and I do know the causes, some of which I do not have control of.

I am referring to being able to create a "regular" schedule with the kids in the daycare. Back in San Diego, things were very different from my physcial location (across the street from a school), resources that were available to providers (headstart, gain, YMCA and the resource listing) and a better economy. My prices were known to be one of the lowest in the city and I was known to get the children prepared for kindergarden. I had a reputation for good discipline for the children as well. In fact, the worst behaved children were often referred to me, LOL!

Today, circumstances are so very different i.e. my city itself (fairly country in the middle of nowhere causing parents to have to commute to major cities), the lack of available subsidized programs and, most of all, the condition of the economy. As we know, cost is always a factor and there are many influences to determining what parents can afford without going so low as to being unable to pay my own bills. I do still keep my charges low.

The economy is hurting us all very badly. Adults are loosing jobs quickly and in mass amounts. People who have worked at major corporations for years and years have lost their jobs and are forced to work at fast food places at 1/4 the pay! The competition is huge! In working at fast foods, grocery stores, etc., they are also forced to work varying hours. My point is such that the state of the economy, parents are having tough times, with crazy hours, doing the best they can to hold on to minimum paying jobs.

I don't want to sound selfish, but I said all that to say, the kids all get here at varying hours, that change from week to week, sometimes even daily. To prepare a cirriculum is fairly difficult because often I don't know who I will have for the day. In addition to that, having my grandson makes for difficulty scheduling as well, babies will be babies.

Every now and again, we have exceptionally exciting days that flow wonderfully. For me, "every not and then" is not enough. Often I feel discouraged and bored. I can only wonder what the children might be feeling.

They do enjoy playing together and are learning may social and interactive skills. They get a lot of physical activity. A few days ago, my friend and neighbor came over and we decided on a whim to rearrange the entire backyard. It turned out very, very nice! The kids absolutely love it and it allows for them to get more large muscle use.

Making Changes

Today was rather interesting. I spent the whole weekend calculating my time due to the prevention of depression. Today proved successful :). Somehow, I feel my depression is caused by my interpretation of the events in my life.

Saturday, my 17 year old boy surprised me by doing many chores that I had mentioned needed to be done, but as usual, I had forgotten about. It gave me such a sense of relief. So often, I feel as if I must run everything or nothing will get done. I suppose that is the oldest known statement of a mother LOL! My son remembered to put the banner up to advertise for daycare kids. He washed my car that has recently been repaired after being inoperatable for a year and 7 months, and he cut the front grass which makes the house look so much better :). Keep in mind, he is on restriction too! Saturday night, we crawled into our jammies and watched dvd's til late.

Sunday, I laid in bed all day, in my jammies, watching movies. At first, I kept telling myself, this is ridiculous and I need to get up. Then I remembered, a friend of mine once told me, that sometimes that is exactly what you need is to do "nothing" all day long. I did get up eventually to go to sunday service which I was glad I did. I took my grandson who was rather cranky.

While at services on sunday, my grandson made a biscuit in his diaper which seemed to burn his bottom :(. It concerned me a great deal because this was not like him. My first thought was his teeth. His bottom two teeth are just about ready to break through. Later that evening, he did it again. I put salve on him to prevent another occurrence.

When I spoke to my daughter about his burning bottom, she recalled having some jalapenos a few days ago (She pumps her breast milk and freezes it). Last night, he was cranky throughout the night, waking up about 4 times. This morning, he did much better. Upon making another biscuit, he is fine now :), though I think he is getting a tad bit spoiled! :)

Today went quite well as Gina, my neighbor from acoss the street dropped in for a visit. We took the boys outside (daycare kids) to play. She loves to decorate and build major projects. She got an idea to change my entire patio and yard around so that now it looks like a regular little playgroud for the kids :) If I knew how to download pictures, I would show you. The boys had a blast out there!

Saturday, my daughter brought me home some beautiful flowers, once again in appreciation for keeping the baby while she continues to go to school and work. Now that the baby is getting older and I am getting a bit more sleep, not much, things feel a little better.

I am thinking about keeping kids on satuday because I simply need the money. The thing about doing weekend care, is that I will not get a break at all from working. I ask myself, has it come to that point that I must work every day? That's just sad!

Getting Worried

I admit, I am quite concerned about my budget. I am getting phone calls for the openings that I do have in the daycare, however, for whatever reason, it has not worked out. Many of the parents are calling from far away that do not travel this way for work. Others have very hectic work hours and are unable to pay an hourly rate of $9.00/hr. Others are part time and do not realize the cost of childcare until they contact the provider.

I did go out yesterday to one of the subsidized offices and passed out flyers. I had a chance to make direct contact wtih some of the parents. They were very kind and receptive, but that doesn't necessarily mean they need childcare.

On a good note, I did get my car back after 1 year and 7 months! It only cost $350 which included both parts and labor! This was paid for prior to my budget crunch. I had two mechanics tell me I needed a new engine at $2800, another tell me it was the computer chip at $1800 and two others tell me it was fuel related. All these were absolutely incorrect! I am so glad I trusted my gut. I have always taken good care of my vehicles with regular upkeep. I felt all of these were extreme. So, I waited. Now, I am waiting for the budget to get better so I can get the car registered, smogged and insured.

A Full House!

As I sit here and speak to you all, I have a housefull of children! I am tired, but can you believe I am enjoying it?! Am I crazy!

I have my regular late sibling set, a 10 year old and a 20 month old, and I am baby sitting a sibling set that was in the daycare previously but moved ot a different city, 3 year old and 1 year old. Plus, I am watching my friends' grandson, 7 years old due to a death in the family. My grandson I am still taking care of until grandpa (my ex husband) comes to pick up both our teenage boys and the baby for the weekend.

Yes! my household is quite busy right now! When it is all over, I will totally colapse into oblivion! Too bad daycare providers are not paid enough for all that they do! One has to be insane to do such a profession :)! There ya' go...I must be insane! LOL!

Have a happy and fulfilled weekend!....presious

Teething Sadness

My grandson, now 5 months old, is teething pretty badly. Poor baby, you can see where the teeth are pressing through is gums. Yesterday was pretty tough for him. Last night, I gave him some tylennol and a nice warm bath, rubbed him down with baby oil, gave him a nice warm bottle of milk, then wrapped him in a blanket and rocked him to sleep. He woke up only once in the middle of the night.

He is having a wonderful morning so far. He is not crying, in fact, he is smiling and having a good time playing with his toys :). He should be getting ready for his morning nap. It's so hard when they teeth and there's not a whole lot we can do for their discomfort. This time, it worked out well. Nana is happy and I am certain that my grandson is much better!

Getting Better

Thank you for your response to "What Do You Do?". You are right, it is very heart breaking. My heart felt for her so much. I couldn't imagine what she must be feeling, even today.

The family came over yesterday evening and updated me on the situation. The two members that came were her sister and brother-in-law. They wanted to know what had happened from my perspective since everyone was so very upset and I was on the outside so-to-speak. They also explained some significant family history with some very old school, generational dysfunctions. This poor girl, being the youngest in the immediate family at 20 years old, has become the scapegoat/target of the family's dysfunctions. This has been going on for a very, very long time. All that in addition to her being born possibly a drug baby.

She has never had any real support. The family really seems to be in denial of her symptoms i.e. possibly biopolar with signficant depression and major anxiety. Their expectations of her is that of a 20 year old when in reality, emotionally, she may be 12 or 13 years old. Therefore, they would need to expect her to have the behavior of a young teenager and not a young adult woman.

I spoke with the family and pointed out these aspects. The sister and brother-in-law understood and decided to create a plan of taking her to live with them in order to provide her with some guidance and to allow her feel secure and loved. The other members of the family were quite angry and maintained their higher expectations of her while making fairly extreme accusations.

This is only a crumb in this child's experience. I can not begin to tell you some other aspects of this child's experience in this family. Ignorance comes at a high price to those on the receiving end. It is a sad situation when human beings are incapable of learning new skills to help, not only themselves, but those loved ones that are very close to them. In the end, they all suffer. The family system is quite dynamic, both positively and negatively.

The hope is that, once she moves in with her sister, she will take steps and make progress towards healing. It will not come overnight, but she has to start somewhere. The permanent relocation won't happen til June, however, they want to pick her up this friday and keep her for a few weeks, and periodically, until June. There are some things that need to be straightened out before the final move.

Keep the prayers coming for this family and many others who are going through the same experience.

Much Love!

What do you do?

Last night was heart breaking for me as an event occurred with my neighbor and dear friend from across the street. She is a wonderful mother and wife. I have always admired her for how well she handles her husband and children of a blended family.

One of the daughters, all five of the kids are grown, was exposed to drugs in the womb by the biological mother. My friend is the stepmom. As a result of this exposure, this particular daughter will always have emotional difficulties from time to time i.e. irrational, anger issues, explosive, tell untruths, etc. For the most part, she remains stable until she feels threatened.

Recently, the daughter lost her boyfriend, somewhat due to her mental irrationalities. Her greatgrand mother passed away last week and her father, who is her strong hold, had to go to New York for the services. So, basically, she has had some major losses very recently.

Well, last night every thing came to a head and she had a major melt down and tried to cut her wrists. I don't think she was trying to "kill" herself because she did not cut horizontally, rather she cut vertically, as if she was trying to create a release valve for all the anxieties she was feeling.

During the ordeal, her stepmom ordered her sister to come get me to assist in calming things down. I ran over to help. The police had already been called, which they responded very well and in a caring fashion. They send 6 police units, a fire engine and an ambulance! They handled her very well as they took her in for a 5150. After it all had calmed down, I sat with my friend for a few hours and we talked. I very, very, very difficult situation to live with. At any given time, the daughter can have a melt down. In tha past, she has attacked the family with knives and fighting. Quite naturally, they will see about medicating her, however, the pattern is typcially that when they start to feel better, they stop taking the medication, then they start all over again.

I worked in juvenile hall for about a year (before being terminated due to the economy), in the high security unit. It was hard to watch these teenagers who had similar issues and had resorted to the streets for guidance and, thus, ended up locked up. Often, these kids would have melt downs, even become suicidal. It was my job to evaluate and cousel with them. Many of them were broken as very young children. Many days, I drove home worried or in tears behind these young men who had become so hardened by street life due to circumstances that were not their own. Sometimes, once the damage is done, there is no turning back.

Again, I ask, what do you do?....very sad

Relieved!

I just dropped the mortgage payment in the mail right now! What a relief! Being two kids down in the daycare has made the budget quite tight. :You know how I do it, I look ahead and try to avoid mishaps before they happen...from groceries to bills to paying the mortgage. This is how it pays off! :) Above and beyond is that of my faith in God! He is awesome! Let me tell you, prayer works!

I also have a potentially new little girl for the daycare. Her mom is a go-getter, single parent, pursing her masters in social work and working while raising two teenagers and a adolescent. I've been there and done that while raising four kids. It can definitely be a challenge, but can absolutely be done! She and I talked for a very long time. Her schedule will be a bit crazy, but I really like helping people to accomplish their dream. The world is not meriful at all so we have to do whatever we can to get around some major obstacles. I am more than thrilled to help.

I feel pretty good this morning. Already have the meatloaf in the oven, cooked a pot of rice and the green beans were done yesterday. My grandson is doing quite well. He is on the floor more and more for tummy time. Getting soooo big! In fact, it's time to go buy him another batch of clothes! He is doing well with his sleeping schedule both day and night. When the daycare kids are playing outside, I put him in the high chair and set it outside too. He gets so excited cause he wants to go play! :) Before we know it, he will be out there too.

Yes, Polly, the ice cream was just the right thing for dinner! It really hit that spot and tasted sooo good! :).....no guilt either LOL!

A Productive Weekend

The weekend was so good. My boys and I accomplished so many little things that needed to be done for such a long time. That is such a good feeling! Let's see, we stained the driveway fence, we took two loads to the thrift store, one load to the trash, swept & mopped the kitchen floors and washed the kitchen area rugs, changed the furniture around in the loft to better house the night care kids, and cleaned the boys' bathroom....whew!! As our treat for so much work, we watched movies in our pj's and with our big blankets. That was all on saturday! Sunday, we ran a few errands, picked up some burgers and went to late service.

We also took Polly's summer suggestion and had ice cream for dinner!

A New Plan

Today, my ex called (I suppose I should call him by his name, Clovis) and suggested I move back to San Diego by the end of the summer. This suggestion, though not a bad one, caused my brain to flip-flop. It threw me for a loop because if it were that easy, I would be there already Lol! I do know him well and that is his way of having me and the kids closer so that he can better help when times get a little tough.

Clovis is not the first person who has made a few suggestions that have caused me to reflect "back". I use the term "back" because these are areas of my life I left due to major discomforts. The thought of returning brings about very mixed feelings. It's been almost four years since we moved from San Diego. A lot has changed for the better. To move back would be like stepping back into the past but as a new, different person. Kind of like visiting your old school now that you are all grown up. Just not sure.

I think I mentioned that a very, very old and dear friend of mine, David, called me the other day. He suggested I take the licensing exam again. This is still an extremely sensitive area for me. I already explained my termination from my job in '07 and having taken the exam two weeks later. I was already scheduled to take several months before being terminated. Needless to say, I failed the exam by 11 points! It was the usual 4 hour exam and I was very, very, very emotional due to loosing my job.

Long story short, it is just interesting how two people, who have known many, many years are suggesting I re-visit areas of my past. I'm not sure how I feel about that....about the actual suggestions. Personally, I feel it is their way of trying to help. For me, all is pretty well with exception of a temporary financial set back. My thoughts say, I will get a few kids for the daycare in due time and things will be ok.

I must be careful not to let someone else's need be my own.....there! Whew! Thank you for listening! Lol!

Oneself....

Hey Polly,

THank you so much for your encouragement. Taking care of yourselves is so important. My motivation, unfortunately, is stress. I don't like the way it feels so I strive hard to detour the feelings. We can only do our best with circumstances. Once we have done all that we can do, we have let it go until the next step comes into view. Until that point, there's no sense in pondering over it.

Considering the economy and how tough things are right now, I am doing fairly well for a single parent doing it all pretty much alone. My children's father is a very good man. We both agree, even 12 and a half years later, that we should have remained best friends. However, we have four beautiful children now. He has been very good about child support, but I make it a point to not go beyond that. Two of our four kids are no longer on child support. One will be off child support come June. THat will leave one more to go for four more years. Needless to say, this affects my income. The kids are well behaved young adults. We are very blessed considering what young people are exposed to today.

I am a warrior. I look over the horizon of life and try to prepare for upcoming battles, such as decreasing child support. That allows me to try to make adjustments. Finaces are my biggest concern. Debt scares me to the bone! I'm constantly looking over the bills, making sure there are no mistakes by the bill collector so I pay nothing extra. I am in constant contact with my bill people and have a pretty good relationship with them Lol! They track my contact with they via computer, of course. Such contact has proven good for me... small deductions along the way :).

All this said and done, including running the daycare, it is extremely important to maintain good mental functioning. As with anyone, stress can swallow us up and cause more damage to our health than we can ever imagine. I don't believe doctors always know what they are talking about, therefore, we have to be active towards our own good health as well. For example, I prefer supplements to medication. Although we have to be just as careful with supplements, they tend to have far less side effects than medication.

I encourage everyone to take care of themselves, especially if you are a parent, with or without a mate. A hot bath or shower, and getting plenty of rest, better plenty of sleep, makes a huge difference!

Carry on ladies!!

Victorious Muttling

Despite the muttling and stuggling, the week has been victorious...so far. It was quite a difficult start on monday. Being a single parent, sometimes, one has to do some self-pampering and nurturing in order to get ourselves back on our feet both physically and emotionally. So, a few spa baths and supplements later with a few good restful nights, I'm back in the captian's seat. Last week was a huge struggle....its a girl thang, that's all I can say. This week is back to normal...whatever normal may be cause it is definitely relative, Lol!

Well, I am still down two children in the daycare, but I am definitely enjoying little Tyler. He is an extremely bright little boy who knows his letters, numbers and shapes all by random identification. We spent much of the day doing projects. Since he likes the sky and it is rainy season with gray skies today, I helped him to make a mobile. Afterwards, we did some fine motor exercises by writing his letters and doing some coloring. He is such a delight to watch! Awesome facial expressions. We are working on expanding his extremely limited array of food choices. Very, very picky. We are making efforts to add a different food each week. Last week was peanut butter and jelly...what little one doesn't like peanut butter and jelly....Tyler, Lol! This week it is apple slices, with no skin of course. He is doing very well considering he's never had them before to my knowledge.

It's been a comfortable day. My own symptoms are at a minimum lately. Feels really good. I've been slacking on my stretches because I've been in such discomfort. Kinda a catch 22. Stretches help relieve the discomfort, but if too much discomfort, can't perform the stretches. Feeling good today. Can't overdo it.

I really enjoy reading the blogs, helps make the day a bit more exciting. Keep them going ladies!

Always, Presious

Back from the Weekend

Well,

My daughter felt I needed a break from the baby and decided to take him over to our friends house. I had my reservations for several reasons, however, he is her child and I let her decide. In the end, I did appreciate the break. Unfortunately, friday night that he was gone, I had a series of busy, not bad, dreams and I woke up exhausted. I do remember the dreams but do not see the relevance to my life....I guess I do, thinking about it.

Saturday, very dear friend of mine came up from San Diego (my old home town) and took me back there for an overnight trip. We went to dinner then just hung out the rest of the time. It was so awesome. I did not realize how much I needed to take a break. My teenage boys kept the baby while my daughter went to work. They did an awesome job and kept in contact with me every step of the way. Proved interesting for my boys. They now have just a wee bit more appreciation for how much work it takes to take care of a baby, run a daycare and keep the house going all at the same time! LOL! I feel so much better starting the week today.

When I got back home, my grandson was so glad to see his Nana that he wouldn't let me too far out of his sight! I got lots of smiles from him! Kids are so amazing from the cradle all the way up to teens and beyond.